I discovered my power in 2010. In my line of work, power was given to me. What I mean by that is certain rights, expectations and responsibilities were passed down to me. I was taught how to use it effectively, and wisely. I was called to intervene during a confrontation. There are many ways to handle various types of situations. Before I arrived, I played out in my mind a few different ways I thought this confrontation could be resolved. As I quickly observed and listened to what was happening, I decided to use a technique that I've never tried before. It's a technique I call whispering. Two young females were involved in a verbal altercation. I removed one of the females from the area to avoid the situation from escalating. She became even more argumentative. I spoke to her in a soft low tone, forcing her to have to listen to what I was saying, and shifting all attention to me. She instantly calmed down, within seconds. this technique worked effectively, and successfully. People often associate power with negatively. This was a powerful tool I had in my possession.

   I lost my power at a young age. My innocence was taken from me. It left me vulnerable, open to any type of attack. I didn't know how to process it. I had so many questions, with no answers to them. I shut down, removing myself from everyone, and everything. I felt robbed, like something was taken from me. There was a cloud over me wherever I went. I internalized what was going on, not wanting to talk about it. I was confused. Everything stopped. I was at a stand still. I felt empty, and useless. I had no strength, and no control over myself. I found myself trying to occupy my time, so I wouldn't have to think about anything. That only lasted for so long. Eventually, and knowingly, it would come back up and try to consume me. When it did come, I sent messages to people in my life, signs if you will, trying to say something that scared me. It wasn't until years later, that I was able to piece everything together and tell my story.

I learned how to tap into this powerful being that was within me. I had guidance, was given advise, and the necessary tools to bring this whirlwind of energy to the forefront. I first had to find out who I was, and what my purpose in life could and would be. I started doing things that made me happy, things that made me confident. Having self control was my first objective. I had to learn how to control the fire that breaths inside me. It was always there, but not knowing how to control it, made it seem as if it didn't exist. I learned to forgive a person. I had to forgive, for closure, for peace, and most importantly, for myself. I started writing my thoughts. It was an outlet for me. The entries helped me realize how much of a powerful human being I really am. I wanted to help others, giving back what I could. It empowered me, it got me through some really low points in my life. I'd ride my bike in the woods, it's peaceful there. It allowed me to think. It was a quiet place. Being outdoors has always done something for me. The power in me grew stronger, but now I knew how to use it. I knew how to harness my power and not destroy anything with it. The energy flows through my veins. I was at ease, able to understand, able to process, and able to control the flames that kept my soul alive.

When I was a Limitless Child

When I was a limitless child 

There was time for me to grow

I could grow taller than Jack and The BeanStalk 

I would look down on everyone and everything

I couldn't be chopped down

I will stand forever

I ate and drank pure water and fresh food

Rooting myself permanently in the ground

Mother nature couldn't stop me 

We were good friends

Did I grow too tall to fit in this world with everyone else?

No, never, not a chance

The universe is too big

Infinite in fact

There was plenty of room for me

I'm here to stay

Sun, food, and water will keep me alive

I had plenty

Can't be selfish, I had to share

I did just that

Watching my peoples grow

They started off small 

I watched them grow up 

It's cool up here 

Hurry up 

Can't rush it though

Absorb this knowledge 

Continue to grow

You made it up here with me

Now you see what we can all be

Limitless

Thanks Mr. J

Mr. Johnson

I want to thank you. Thank you for leading by example. You make your presence known when you enter the room. Your level of confidence is inspiring to me. The no nonsense approach you take is admirable. It's no wonder why you continue to be successful in life. It's refreshing to know that there are people like yourself that desire to bring out the good qualities of a person. You strive to make an individual look within themselves, so one can see how powerful they really are. Thank you for being real, patient, and understanding.

Throughout the years, your drive, and determination to succeed rubbed off on me. when I wanted to make changes in my life, you were always there to guide me through them. You always gave me sound advice, and led my in the right direction. When I wanted to apply to Cambridge College, you took time from your busy schedule to go with me. I now know you did that to assure me that it was OK to want to take on such a big responsibility. That was a clear message to me that this was the way to move onto the next phase of life.....education. It is so true that knowledge is power. I remember when we first met. I used to hang out at Fred's place often. I heard of you, and finally got the chance to meet you. From there, our relation grew, even though we in different places in our lives. You saw something in me that I didn't. It was you that bought it out. I started to think differently, I started to act differently. It felt so strange, but it also felt good. I thought one way about life. I thought life was impossible to improve, but you showed me that there is always room for improvement. I can remember when you were working on obtaining your masters degree, working full time, and raising a family. I used to say to myself, "how in the hell is he able to do this?" It was obvious, you refused to fail. You wanted better for yourself, and went to great lengths to make sure that happened. We had a talk about that. You explained to me that nothing in life that will make you a better person will ever come easy. 

I still can't believe how you were able to finish you degree program. I remember calling you a few months later, but you didn't answer the phone. A few days later you returned my call, and apologized for not getting back to me sooner. I gave you a hard time about it, telling you when I call, you need to answer me. We shared a laugh. It was then when you hit me with the news. You told me you were busy with going back to school for your PH.D. There was nothing but silence on the phone. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. At first, I thought you were joking with me, but you were indeed very serious. It was that moment that everything changed me. Before knowing this, I had nothing going on in my life that I was proud of. It was you being who you are that got me to where I am today. I'm ready now, ready to complete my mission. My health, family, and education is my focus now. Without you, I don't know where I would be, or where I would be going in life. I can't thank you enough Mr. J

Your Friend

Patrick

Rhyming Ode

"Free"

I used to roam the streets, with no place to go

It was cold, I was bold 

But this was starting to get old

Had to take my pride, place it to the side, found my ride

Hit my stride

I had one last chance to survive 

Made some cheddar

Things got better

Now I'm tougher than leather 

Mind got cleaver

Pulled the lever 

Flushed that old life forever

Chorus

can't you see

this is me

one last chance to be free

can't you see 

this is me

one last chance to be free

can't you see

this is me

one last chance to be free

Now my brain is clear

Look at all my fans cheer

The evolution is near, take a seat in the rear

I've equipped myself

Got my health

About to go out for self

Deal what dealt

Move in stealth

Beat my brain with this knowledge till it welts

Chorus

can't you see 

this is me 

one last chance to be free

can't you see

this is me 

one last chance to be free

can't you see

this is me 

on last chance to be free

No more roaming the streets

Place to sleep, food to eat 

Time to make life complete

Got no time for repeats

Learned hard, life is a struggle

Made my moves on the double

Time to shave 

Got me some stubble

Cleaned up, stayed out of trouble

Can't live life in a bubble

Chorus 

can't you see

this is me

one last chance to be free

can't you see 

this is me

one last chance to be free

can't you see 

this is me

one last chance to be free

My name is P

    

The Beginning

Sunday, September 13, 2015

I was born on November 13, 1973, at the Peter Bent Brigham Hospital in
Boston, MA. The hospital is now known as Brigham and Women's
Hospital. I was a big boy, weighing about 7 pounds at birth. My mother still
jokes around with me about how much of a hard time she had giving birth to me. I grew up on Evans street in Dorchester, MA. When I was about 5 years old, my parents divorced. After the divorce, I can remember spending much of my time at my grandmothers house. She lived just up the street from us. Now I saw my mother having to work twice as hard to provide for us. I believe this is where I get my drive from, seeing my mother work day and night. We are very similar in that regard. A few years later, my mother remarried, and my younger brother was born. There is a 6 year difference between us. He and I were different. We were close, but sort of distant at the same time. As I got older, life became more of a roller coaster ride. My father wasn't in my life. When I was 13, he passed away. He was only 38 years old. At that moment, I had to teach myself what my father was supposed to teach me. Throughout elementary, and middle school, I was always a pretty good student. That was one of the positives I had going on in my life at the time. I could see that I still struggled to find my own identity. As I entered high school, things went down hill fast. I hardly went to school, and when I did, I wasn't doing any work. Somehow towards the end of my freshman year, I managed to pull everything together and move on to the 10th grade. I knew a change had to be made. Instead of going back to Madison Park High School, I pleaded with my mother to let me go to private school. She finally agreed, and enrolled me the next school year. As I look back on that change, I can see that it saved me. I flourished at my new school, and things seemed to be getting better. I made it, and finally graduated. At that moment, my life took yet another change. Graduating gave me a since of accomplishment.

Deep sea fishing is one of my favorite activities to do. When I get on that boat, my cell phone doesn't work, the sun is starting to rise, and there is this chill in the air that makes it all worth while. It's me and the open ocean, my playground. We steam to the fishing grounds, drop our baited lines down 300 feet, and reel up some very tasty treats from the sea. I've been taught how to clean, and process my catch. It's something that takes skills. It makes me feel complete. I'm a provider, bringing home food for my family that I caught and prepared for them.

Another hobby of mine is going to the shooting range. Saying that scares some people. Some people are unaware that shooting is a sport. A sport that is recognized throughout the world. It is competitive, and involves tests of accuracy and speed. It also takes concentration and patience. Men, women, and children of age are able to participate.

  I also enjoy gardening. A small plant goes into the ground. Add, some water and sunlight, and this small plant begins to transform. It grows, matures, and evolves into food, or colorful plants. I'm always fascinated by watching this take place, watching the change day by day. At times I get my chair, sit in the garden and listen to the birds chirp, and the bees buzz. They actually do the work. Most plants have to be pollinated in order to grow. The bees go from blossom to blossom, dusting as they go. I'm in another world when I'm in the garden. Everything is peaceful and quiet.

Before I embarked on this new journey of going back to college, a good friend of mine talked to me about having a feeling of accomplishment, and admired the idea of college. He told me that he could tell I was unhappy with my current situation. I explained that I was. I also expressed how nervous I was to do this. I had this feeling of being anxious but scared at the same time. I can remember September 8, 2015 like it was yesterday. I had my first class. My life changed at 7:00 pm that day. The walk from my car to the main entrance of the campus seemed like such a long walk, one that I was ready to take. I walked focused, eager, and ready to learn. I am determined to complete my mission. I feel like a general. I am a general, in control of my one man army. No more letting life pass me by. It's time to take control of my destiny.


Affirmation #97

The past has no power over me anymore.



Took some time to realize,
he can't hurt me anymore.
everything in life happens for a reason.
Patrick is the real superman!
afraid of nothing,
stronger than most,
taller than the sky.
hold on, enjoy the ride.
a new man is here!
sit down and wait!
nothing happens till I say!
opponents, don't apply.
put yourself in position,
oust the competition!
water is life, watch the
elephants drink.
rocks turn to sand.....
overtime.
vultures eat rotten meat.
everything in the desert submits to defeat.
run over me if you can.
men like me can't be knocked off their feet.
every time you try, I'll get right back up.
anything you do,
nothing will phase me.
you know where to find me.
most of the time I'm at home,
outside with a cigar, chilling,
reminiscing on the day, and what I could have done better.
evolution is coming, get ready!