Sunday, December 13, 2015

My Personal Legend



Keep the money, the cars, and all the nice things. I can do without it. I have something better, a cleansed soul. I have a clear vision, and a clear understanding of what life means, and what life is all about. This week alone made me fully understand what's important to me, and what it is I've been looking for all this time. I traveled for so long, alone looking under every rock for some sort of clue to help me find it. When I initially found it, I didn't know what to do with it. It burned a hole in my pocket, just like money does, but this was a hotter burn. Water couldn't put it out. It's funny how thing take shape in life. I get knocked down, I get right back up and dust myself off. I've learned to better accept things, good or bad, things do happen for a reason. There is always a lesson learned. I just want to give back those same lessons that I've had to learn the hard way. I want to touch someones soul everyday. I've gone through plenty to be able to do that. Being where I am today, is nothing short of a miracle. I used to have this one way of thinking, nothing but negative thoughts, and negative ways of living. Negative thoughts and negative actions will lead to a negative lived life. I want to make sure I leave my mark when I'm gone. I want to be remembered as that person of good, that soothing person that made everyone in my life feel accomplished.



You get to a point in life when you're ready for the next serving of offerings. There is that feeling of your purpose not being complete, not finished, and unsolved like a jigsaw puzzle. It's easy to get into a comfort zone in life not wanting or seeing the need for change. It happens to many, and it's the fear of change that causes many of us to stay where we are and not want better. Sometimes you have to take a chance and step out of that comfort zone. Yes it is scary but that's what makes it exciting at the same time. Be unafraid, take chances, and go get more from life and what it has to offer. Paint your blank canvas, make it beautiful, make it yours. Jump over the many obstacles that will get in the way. They are supposed to be there. It's not supposed to be easy. It's the challenge that makes it all worth it. It's the falling down and getting up that teaches the lessons that are needed to move ahead. It's the failure and defeat that makes you appreciate what's at the end of the road. Go get your gold, have some elixir along the way.





I can see it as clear as day. My goal, my dreams, my life. I walked through hell to get here, but I made it, and ain't nobody taking my spot. I've worked to dam hard for this. There is no better feeling for me. Sure you need money to survive. You need money to live. This is better than having a million bucks. It's better than having the nicest car money can buy. You can't walk into a store and buy this. Success can be had with hard work, determination, and never giving up. When I'm told I can't have it makes me want it even more. I know why I'm here, and what my purpose in life is. I found my Personal Legend, and nothing makes me feel better than how I'm feeling right now at this moment. It took a long time, many years in fact. Everyone has their time. When I was ready, I went for it. I got kicked in the mouth, but I kick back. They told me I couldn't have it. Dam that. I told them I'm getting it like it or not. It all started when I walked through the doors of the main campus. The start of something special was about to happen, and I'm dam proud of myself and what I have accomplished, and what I have found out I'm capable of. I'm going to be a beast. Hello World, allow me to introduce myself. The name is Patrick. Afraid of nothing, and will be feared by most.


R.I.P......P


The vessel is gone 
But the soul remains
It was time to take away the pain

A man of few words
Often quiet but still heard
He never got mad 
Just disturbed

Loved by many 
He will be missed
Sickness took him quick
It was swift

When he laughed and joked
Your pants got soaked
He tickled you to death 
Made you choke

Big shoes to fill
He lived for the thrill
He'll look after everyone
Indeed he will







Sunday, December 6, 2015

The Greater Good





Work for me is gratifying and rewarding. I work with high school students, and each day is different, exciting, and fulfilling. Young people, such as the students that I work with, have problems, get stressed, and deal with the everyday struggles as adults do. I feel elated at the end of everyday when I am able to help just one student. To see that young person smile does something to me. The fact that I was able to do that is enough gratitude in itself. I am very grateful to be in the position I am today. I wouldn't trade this job in for anything in the world. Being in college is allowing me to provide even more to my students than I already do. Don't get me wrong, some days can be hell, but it's those days that make me understand why it is I get up and go to work in the first place.






The hard work that goes into guiding and being there for my students is also very rewarding. I'm not sitting in front of a computer screen all day entering data, nor am I'm not making phone calls all day. Dealing with the day to day real life stuff is what it's all about for me. It's like getting full from a nice meal. It feels so good when I get in my car everyday to head home knowing that I help a student succeed both academically and personally. Nothing worth anything will come easy. I tell that to my students all the time. I push them to their limits, telling them to always want more. It's humbling and rewarding for me, and my students. It's worth it for me to wake up at 5:30 am each day to see my students, especially on Monday mornings. They can be tough, coming to school after the weekend. Something is bound to have happened that needs to be figured out. That's what keeps me coming back for more and more.



  


Look at that caption: Good vibes only. That's so powerful. It's so true. Positive attitudes, positive movements, and positive people will yield positive results in all walks of life. All of these positive things falls under having gratitude. Gratitude brings happiness. Gratitude is good for school. Gratitude is good for work. Showing gratitude in work, school, and everyday life is the way to be. I've been adjusting my own personal life to live this type of life. I bring this same positive attitude to the workplace. I spread this same new found joy that I've discovered throughout the school community. Students, staff and even the visitors that come in the building get some glee. I've been having many good days lately, and continue to keep it alive.



Skills


I'm ready to work 
Let's go 
The name is Patrick
So now you know

I got all the skills you need 
So please
I need this job
Yes indeed

I'm on a mission
See my ambition?
I'm winning and grinning
Pulled out the linen

I'm one of a kind
Speak my mind
I'm very qualified
Time to shine

My skills pay my bills
No frills
The interview went well
I'm thrilled 



Sunday, November 29, 2015

The Future

The year is 2022. That's the end, and the beginning of my next mission. I have just completed my college education, obtaining a Master's degree in psychology. A HUGE deal for me both personally, and professionally. I made the walk across the stage, graduating with honors, and am about to give a speech to my friends, family, peers, and faculty. I describe the struggle, the hard work, and the determination that allows me to stand at the podium and deliver my message. I describe the countless hours of the dining room light burning throughout the night, as I studied, completed homework, and prepared for exams. In closing, I made sure to explain that nothing worthy will come easy, and that this is only the beginning. There is no need to stop now. Keep striving for more. Want bigger and better, and if you want something, get out there and get it. It's a proud moment for me, my family, and my close friends. I started with a plan, and executed it. 

I have a job interview coming up in the next couple weeks. I'm nervous as hell, but my level of confidence and determination will set me apart from the rest of the applicants. The job is a position at a hospital, second in charge of the behavioral health department, specializing in adolescents developmental, and emotional issues. Coming from a turbulent past, I can understand what young people grow through. Growing up is no easy task to say the least. I have a growing passion for this line of work. I know I'm up against plenty of other well qualified candidates, but I plan on letting my background, and experience speak for itself. I seek something to complete me as a man, as a father, and as a passionate human being. I'm all about helping others find their way and their purpose in life. It's important to know what your Personal Legend is, and what you have to do as a person to find it. My children will prosper beyond their wildest dreams. I want two. That's it. no more, no less. Money isn't everything. I want to be comfortable. I want to have the ability to travel, do things with myself, and my children as I see fit. I want to live where there is no snow. I'm tired of shoveling it. Someplace warm is good with me. North Carolina sounds good to me. Most of my family still lives there. I'd like to get back there someday.


Sometimes You're up, Sometimes You're Down

I landed the position at the hospital. Things were great for many years. I had made enough money to put my two daughters through college, purchase my dream home in North Carolina, and get on a plane or boat whenever I wanted to. I had the opportunity to take a trip to China, Russia, and Australia. Nothing short of amazing! Life long experiences, lasting memories, and a dam good time is what took place. I set out to accomplish things in life, and was able to do so. It was a Monday morning. I had a very relaxing weekend. I wasn't on call, so I was able to sit out on the deck and chill. I gazed at the stars when the sun went down. I watched the nocturnal creatures of the night search for food, and I listened as the crickets rub their hind legs together, searching for their soulmates. My relationship with the mothers of my two children hadn't worked out, but we learned how to become friends and co-parent, and support the children in anyway possible. They were accomplished, and successful career women, with families and lives of their own.

I went into the office that Monday morning with some pep in my step, rested, and ready to share some new ideas with my co-workers about our new program. We just recently had our work area restricted to just personnel of the department, so an entry system was installed. Authorized persons had to enter a code to get into the office area. I entered my access code to no avail. I attempted to enter it again. Same results. Then suddenly, a person came over the intercom, and told me to report to the security office. As I got there I was greeted by someone that knew me, but I hadn't a clue who they were. I was told that I didn't have a job anymore. As a matter of fact, the whole department was shut down due to budget restraints, ,and seeing that the department was fairly new, we were the first to go. I was speechless, angry, and hurt. I tried calling people from the office, but I was unable to get an answer from anyone. I attempted to contact the Board of Trustees for some answers, also to no avail. I was jobless, I was life less. I couldn't put into words what was happening to me. I sat there in my car, numb, and motionless, trying to figure out what to do. This conundrum left me stunned, without an explanation. I never got the answer I was looking for. It was like everyone disappeared, everyone was gone. As I made it home, I noticed the front door had been boarded and locked, as well as the rear. I was locked out of the house. I didn't have a mortgage, so there was no issue of any late payments. Not only was I jobless, I was also homeless. I dam sure wasn't to call my children. I had way too much pride for that. I spent the next two years panhandling, and living out of my car. I was to much of a mans man to do anything else.



I'll Try It Again (The Rebirth)

Me, the clothes on my back, and my car are now in Alaska. I just took what little money that I had, got in the car, and drove non stop, rolling the dice on a destination. I'm in Alaska freezing my tail off. It funny. I said I didn't want to be anyplace cold with snow. There is plenty here, but now this is home. I don't know a single soul up here. I'm now a person that lives off the land. No more city noise. no more hustle, and bustle. I eat what the land, sea, and air offer me. I built my own home in the forest, and from the forest. I ditched the car for a snowmobile and a sled and dogs. I've become richer than the richest man alive. My Personal Legend has been discovered. My new found friend is Mother Nature now. She can be the sweetest person at times, but at other times, she can be a force to be reckoned with. I've learned to live with her mood swings, adapting to her way of life. I smoke my own salmon, mend my own coats, and make my own ammunition for hunting. I'm at peace now. I've spent my life looking for that peace. It's a different way of life, but it's the life that I have been looking for. The journey has now been completed. I've been on this journey over 20 years. I don't have any regrets, but this is where I belong. In the woods, dancing with the wolves, playing with the bears, and watching the graceful deer prance in the wilderness.



Why Me?

Why me?
I am the chosen one
From a pool of many
My stance gave me away
Dam they caught up to me
Doing my best to hide in the shadows
Undetected
Off the radar
Army crawl

Why me?
I've done nothing wrong
Paid my taxes
Paid my dues
I'm getting a refund?
Cool, I'll take it
Sure could use this cash
What else y'all got for me?
I thought a conspiracy was a bad thing
It's all working out in my favor
That's what's up

Why me?
It feels like Christmas
And my birthday
I've been looking for a long time now
Thought I'd never find it
I keeps an open mind, and a open heart
Optimism
 Persistence
Keeps away the resistance
No need to fight it
Just let it happen
Help me help you
Depend on each other
It's cold out there

Why me?
I can't thank you enough
Showering me with gifts of joy and pleasure
That's all I needed to proceed
Keep the material
I'll take the literal
I'll take the guidance
Guide me to the light
Shining bright in there 
Sunburn

Why not me?
I'm good for it
Paying my dues along the way
Putting in the work
Giving back all the time 
Helping others before I help myself
Giving some of this elixir
Before I serve myself
I knew someone was watching
Night vision
  



Sunday, November 22, 2015


My Future, My Life, My World



We can all succeed
Exciting times right now


Patience is a virtue


Finally at Peace 





Just me and the ocean,
Peaceful,
Quiet,
Beautiful













Stepping stones of life
Edinburgh, Scotland
One of the most beautiful places I've had the pleasure of visiting


Maintaining a positive mindset



I have learned how to harness my power




One day I WILL own a beautiful home
Maintaining a healthy mind



Healthy heart, Healthy body

If you look good, you feel good





Worth all the hard work and dedication 


Protecting my Dreams






This is my vision board. Being successful, and being at peace in very important to me. Over the past 10 weeks, I have learned how to take the power within me, and turn that power into productive, positive, and upbeat, energy. Traveling to Scotland was a wonderful, memorable experience that I will never forget. One day, my other visions will become reality. It has already begun to happen. I'm going through a transformation, life altering stuff. I feel it flowing through my veins, and I love it. There is one photo in my vision board that applies to me more than anything. I call it Stepping Stones of Life. I started out my adulthood with a high school education, working odd jobs, trying to find my way. Opportunities began to come, stepping on the next stone to get there. I walked an undefined road for many years. That's OK though. I made sure to take something from me walking aimlessly. Some lessons were a tough pill to swallow, some lessons were not. As you can see, my path is clear now. If I have to patch a spot in the road, I now have the equipment to do so. My vision board is my life now, one that I have worked through so much to get to.  


My Future, My Life, My World

Look thru my eyes
See what I see
If you can

It's a lovely sight
That I'm willing to share
Feel the energy
Have some
Spread it like lotion
Only thing I ask is that you let others have some 
It's universal
For everyone
That's my intention
I need the world to feel what I feel
It's too dam good not to give it away

When I step 
Come right behind me 
Use the same footprint
You foot will fit
Size 10.5
Yield
Stop
 Look 
Then proceed
Take your first right
Then a left
You're almost there
You'll know when you've made it

Follow your dreams
Keep them close
Protect them from the snakes in the grass
They exist 
It's only when you have the energy
That I gave you
That allow you to see them
It's like superman
X-ray vision
Use the pad lock and the instructions I gave you

Eat a good breakfast
Nice and healthy
Push through the day
Bowl of oatmeal
Fresh fruit
Hot cup of tea
Make sure it's green
Better for you

Feed your brain with books
Knowledge
Advise
College
Life lessons
Whatever else fits
Don't worry
There in unlimited space up there
Ready for the intake

Come by the house for some one to one time 
Lay it all out on the table
It's just you and I 
Don't be afraid
I told everyone else to leave

Jump on a plane
Go visit China
California
Russia and Spain
Hell, go where you want 
Just see the world
And what it has to offer

Stay positive and focused
Want bigger and better
Want more
Get more
Align yourself with positive music
Positive people
Positive everything
I promise you the results will pay off
Start off by hanging with me for a while

Throw on that suit and tie
Take your lady out someplace nice
A fancy party or something
In the mirror looking good
If you look good 
You dam sure feel good
Cuff links shining
Beard trimmed up
Smelling like a million bucks
The night belongs to you
Look at that strut 
Your feet aren't even on the ground when you walk

Up at 6 am the next morning
Meet me at the dock
Ain't no wind blowing
Ice up the boat 
Fishing grounds we go
Instead of milk
We use beer with our cereal
Be men of men today
Listen to the sound of nothing 
Except the seagulls wanting our bait
Phone don't work
Good
I could care less
The Atlantic is my playground for the day
I'm back in the office on Monday

Peace is soothing
 Peace is quiet
Peace and quiet
Sounds good to me
Take time and reflect
Map out some mini-goals for the week
Get it all done
Life-map

Success is measured by how much you put into it
My cup is custom made
Won't fit in the house 
It's too dam big
I got BIG plans
BIG goals
BIG things happening
Ear to ear when it all works out
The Joker

Stack them rocks
Stack them bricks
Make sure it fits
There's a trick to it 
Patience
Willingness
Understanding
Is the only way to accomplish your task
I got your back 
Just call and ask

There is something special in each and everyone of us
Sometimes it's buried so deep 
It take sometime to come out
It takes someone, or something for it to evolve
It's like the Collider when it comes out
You see it
You feel it
WACK
The best slap of your life

Don't touch that tassel yet 
It's not time
Let the commencement commence
You got ants in your pants
Pure excitement
Pure Joy
As family and friends look on
Your name is next
Get ready
Don't stumble
Don't break the Chancellors hand
When its extended to yours
Sit back down
Quick pic first
By all means
Flip that tassel now


Sorry about the length, I was in the zone!!

My Future, My Life, My World
Peace 

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Love, Passion, and Pleasure


It took a long time to get here today. It took being homeless, it took being alone, and it took hating myself, not liking the person I saw in the mirror to make it. I have no regrets about it, in fact going through the worst, and being on the bottom helped mold me into the man I am so proud of today. I'm at a point in my life where I want more, and I will do what it takes for me to complete my journey. I have my health, I have my happiness, and I have a positive stable of friends and family by my side, pushing and kicking my each day to keep moving forward. By putting myself around positive people, and doing positive things will yield positive results. It is this same positive approach with my own life that I will inject into the lives of the young men and women that I encounter on a daily basis. I have many interests that I will use along with my work. I love to fish. I like the peacefulness it provides. I am in the process of looking into doing some volunteering at a shelter, or perhaps a food bank.  I'm all about helping people in anyway I possibly can.

By continuing my education, and getting the proper training, I will be able to make my passion a reality, more of a reality than it already is. Right now I'm still in the learning stages, taking each day and each opportunity and learning from it. There is nothing like that hands on experience. It makes the process and transition much smoother. I go to work each day, and end up doing in some capacity what I go to school for. It's more rewarding and more fulfilling for me. I am going through a career change right now. I do enjoy my work, but it's working with the young people that does it for me. It's where I want and will be. Everything is still a work in progress, but I am where I need to be to make this happen. It's the passion that keeps me coming back, It's the belief that I have in it that keeps me coming back. I have plans, many plans and ideas that I will follow through with. 

There is this passion that burns deep within me that wants to reach out to the young men and women that are plagued with disappointment, failure, and have no sense of direction with where they want to go in life. I used to be one of those people. It is that reason that I must be there for them. I've been there, and I know how it feels. I KNOW I can, and will make a difference. Call me the one man army it you must. I feel good at the end of the day when I talk to the kids, when I can offer some advise, and when I know I had an impact on that young person's life. This is my calling, this is what I want to do for the rest of my life. We as adults owe it to the young people to help them figure this life thing out. I like to do many things, so I won't limit myself or my capabilities of what I can and like to do. This is not about me though. It's about the young men and women that struggle with their lives. They struggle with knowing who they are, and how powerful they can become. It does something to me when I see that troubled, confused person smile, and is happy at that moment. That lets me know that there is a chance for that person to become a different person, and that they want to be a different person.




Love, Passion, and Pleasure


Move when I move
Come dance with me
Let's make it our own dance
Call it "Come Closer"

Come Closer 
So I can grab that dream
Grab that opportunity
Hold it tight
Protect it
Can't let nobody else have it
You belong to me

I love loving what I am doing
There is no better feeling
When I see that smile
I smile back 
High Five, I'm so proud

The passion is all over my face
Googly eyed and all
I'm acting all silly
I just can't help myself
You make me feel good 
Stroking my ego like that

If you are pleased
Then so am I 
Feel my energy
It's electric
How are you feeling?
I'm confident you will be content
With what I'm bringing to the table 
Check it out 
Call my references
Make sure I can deliver
If everything works out 
Leave a message 
Set up an appointment
Monday-Friday 7-3   







Sunday, November 1, 2015

There are many things I take for granted. In some ways, it's difficult not to. What I do my best not to do is take life for granted. It's way too short to do so. I like the man I've become. I have just started to come out of my shell, and find out who and what I'm all about. I take that seriously, and value the importance of it each day. Other things are taken for granted. We are all in someways taking many things for granted. Everyday things we take for granted. Look at what it takes to make gasoline. I use a lot of it. Look at what it takes to make paper. I couldn't imagine how many trees are cut to make a box of paper. What I'm trying to say is that taking things for granted is quite simple to do. Most people don't see any harm in things that they do. I had the same mindset at one time, but after doing some reading, I've been paying attention to my own actions, and what could be done to address it. My intentions are not to take things for granted, but with somethings, it's hard not to. I need a car, I need oil to heat my home. These are all things that kill our planet. Not many think about things like that. I am guilty of my own actions. I try my best to do the right thing.

First and foremost, I am grateful that I wake up and breathe air each day. I will always be grateful for my mother, and her hard knock life lessons that she made me learn. It was those lessons that toughened my skin. Prepared me, and molded me into somebody. My grandmother, my caretaker. She made sure I ate, she made sure I got to school. I will always respect those two women. It's not until you grow up when you take those few moments and wonder why this was done. why that was done. Then you realize it was all part of the plan. I always say, I have no regrets with how things played out with my life. I life on a few principals, and everything happens for a reason is one of them. I truly believe that. I'm grateful for the good and the bad, the happy and the sad, and everything else in between. It all made me who I am. John, a good friend of mine used to always tell me; "It's not about the quantity of life, it's about the quality of life." At first I didn't get it, but as time flew over my head, it became so clear what he was trying to say to me. All I used to do was work. I would leave one job and go to another, seven days a week. Anyone that ever loved me walked away from me, they couldn't be bothered. I have everything to be grateful for today. I embrace it. I respect it. I stand proud as a man. I'm happy go lucky, not that tight, tensioned dude that could care less. I have my road in front of me. Sure there are some bumps in it, but I don't walk in circles anymore.

I would like to involve myself into more community activities. Although I am involved in somethings now, I would like to participate in more, become more involved. I would also like to get into some meditation or yoga. I hear nothing but good things about that. Things that are good for the soul is what I want to get into. It's important to do so. Refreshment for the mind and body. I want to exercise more. Life got in the way like it normally does, so I slacked up a bit with the gym. I need to get back into the swing of things. I just want to do positive things, and put myself around positive people. You are the company you keep. I believe in that. I wouldn't want people around me that aren't doing anything positive with themselves. It just brings you down, right now, I'm in a good place, and intend on staying here, no matter what. There is always a way to deal and cope with things. It make me better at the end of the day. I want to help people, live with self awareness, and stay positive, and I am on the right path to do so. My mind feels better as the days come and go. I'm living for right now, and going to make sure I have a bit of fun while I'm at it.



The wind blows leaves fall
Grab my rake and sweep it up
The trees are sleeping

Wintertime is close
Time to shut it down for now
Wake back up in May

Listen to birds chirp
Makes me happy when I hear 
Spring is on the way

Pull the Weber out 
Hear it sizzle watch it glow
Chicken and veggies

Keep it simple though
The trees are waking up now
That makes me happy

Monday, October 26, 2015

Fear: To be afraid of (someone or something) as likely to be dangerous, painful, or threatening.

I lived in fear and doubt for many years. I lived in a box that was closed, and sealed, protecting me from the world, and everyone in it. I never wanted to come out that box, except to get some water and to use the bathroom. I was safe there. When I looked around me, all I saw was four walls, with no pictures, and nothing to look at, except the glass that I used for my water. Sometimes, I'd look thru a peep hole that I cut out so I could see what was going on. I wanted so badly to come out, but it was the fear that was within me that didn't allow that to happen. I didn't want to relive the pain I had been living for so many years, but at the same time, I knew I wasn't living at all. I couldn't continue to rot away in that box, it began to smell, it began to get smaller and smaller. I was starting to out grow it, and at some point, I would have to come out. I finally got up enough courage to emerge from that hell hole. I'd been in there for awhile, so everything looked different. The fresh air that filled my lungs felt so good. As I looked around me, I saw no danger in sight, so I looked around. Step by step, my confidence grew. The fear started to diminish, and it was time to start living once again.

Assets: A useful or valuable thing, person, or quality.

I came to realize how valuable I am. I came to realize how valuable my life is and can be. There is always room for improvement and change. It was time to explore that. I had options, I had choices. I reached out to get the much overdue help I desperately needed. At first, I was embarrassed to get help. I was scared to talk about it. I knew that was the only way to repair the damage. No more band-aids, it was time to go into surgery. Stanley, my therapist, was an asset to me. He helped me channel the fear into constructive, positive things. We had a check list. Things I could do that made me happy, things that gave me peace in my life. Stanley get me the tools to control the anger, and the fear. I still use that check list today, referring to it at times. It was a check list that showed was I was going, and where I could end up. I was able to process things more effectively. I was able to understand things, and put them in perspective. The cloud that hung over my head everywhere I walked. Stanley taught me how to turn negative things around, and make my situation better. He saved me.

Obstacles: A thing that blocks one's way or prevents or hinders progress.

I've had many obstacles throughout my life. It was these obstacles that I needed to have in front of me in order for me to move forward. I believe in failure and defeat, it's needed for growth. I believe in making mistakes, and learning from them. Life is what it is, but life is also what you make it. Each day presents itself with its own set of challenges. I took those challenges head on, without fear, without prejudice, and without regret. Everything happens for a reason. Sometimes, those reasons are unknown. Obstacles are the building blocks of life. They will always exist. There supposed to. Without obstacles, life would be a breeze, but that's not realistic. What I've gone through has made me the man I am today. I don't get upset about it anymore. I embrace it. It's a constant reminder of what lies ahead for me and my future. I am doing so many positive things that I'm proud of. I've made it through the worse, and can't wait to see what is in front of me, waiting for me. Good or bad, I have put myself in a position to deal with it.




Fear is my friend

Run and hide for what
Stand tall and strut
Enough is enough of me kneeling in the cut

I'm the alpha male 
The leader of my pack
You bite me, I attack 
Tom Brady
Quarterback

That fear, he is my dude
No need to be so rude
Butchered and barbecued
Don't catch no attitude
Just be cool
Don't be a fool
I got tools

To bury you in the ground 
No hopes of being found
You acting like a clown
Don't look at me and frown
I'll make you cry
You'll drown
In your tears
Have no fear
He's my friend
From beginning to the end

Remain on my good side
I'm certified to ride
You're guaranteed to fry 
Hot oil, just don't ask why

Some napkins if you would
It's finger licking good